Best Friends For...Never?

I thought I had it figured out,

In a brand new life,
With a great big house,
And green initials on the towels -

I should be happy now.

I came across all these old photos the other day.

Ones of me and a friend with paint on our faces and a rainbow door covered in zebra stripes.

Ones of me and three friends running with horses and playing the game of life on an acreage.

Ones of me and friends waiting for a timed photo at a bus stop - with the bus we were supposed to catch waiting in the background.

Along with these photos, came a video. It was called "Best Friends" - I had made it in year seven with my "Awesome Foursome".

And with all these fantastic memories, came this unsteady conclusion - is there such a thing as Best Friends Forever?

At the time, you can't see yourself without those people in your life.
At the time, you're "BEST FRIENDS FOR EVAAAR!!"

And at the time, you're inseparable.

But just how long does this last?

How long is it before you drift apart and lose contact?

Just how long does it take before that person is just that - a good memory, and an awkward smile when you pass them through the twisted corridors of your life?

Will it be a year? A few more months?

Currently, I have two amazing best friends. I feel so close to them, and they make me laugh, and make me happy so much! I can talk to them about EVERYTHING - and they come up with the most delicious and exciting stories.

But I keep getting terrified. How long am I going to be able to call them my best friends?

I know that everyone drifts apart at some point. And I know that the amount of friends people actually end up keeping upon leaving high school is minimal. But I don't want to have to go through that again. I don't want to have to go find someone new, and build up that substantial amount of trust one needs to call someone a best friend.


I just want to cement this moment in time. But without the overloading stress, and the fears of losing the ones I love, and without the repetitive zombie apocalypse dreams (thank you very much).
I want to keep my two beautiful besties, and keep my cutie-wutie boyfriend who brings me treats and comfort.
But you don't always get what you want.
Time won't stop for me.
And nothing lasts forever.