What A Relief.

"What if I wanted to break,
Laugh it all off in your face -
What would you do?"

I saw you today. And you know what? Nothing happened. There were no butterflies, no sudden pounding of my heart. All I felt, was a strong surge of hatred. And yeah, that sounds harsh, but it's the truth.

I think this means I'm finally over you. The fact that I no longer have good or even mixed feelings for you must be a step in the right direction. Right?
I'm beginning to feel happy again - I can now go out with friends, laugh and be plain fucked - without thinking of you once. And you know what? It feels amazing!

"Would it have even worked?"

You say you hadn't wanted to feel tied down, but now I realise that it had just been me who was tied down already - with mediocre obsessions and obscure ideas that were just blinding my vision, and blinding my life.
Those fun hook-ups and random boy huntings that I'd used to enjoy had become difficult chores, but hopefully that has all changed. I'm ready to move on.

I think a main contribution to this sudden realisation is from looking at my aims from a different perspective. Because even if I had gotten my wish, and we'd ended up together, would it have even worked? Whatever we had had at the beginning, I think I'd destroyed within the first week or so. I mean, so much has happened, and so much has been discussed since then. It wouldn't have been the same. It just took me a while to understand that.

You say you'd wanted to still be friends, but honey - I don't even know if we're that anymore.

"What if I fell to the floor,
Couldn't take all this anymore -
What would you do?"