Stay Strong.

 "So I walked under a bus,
I got hit by a train.
Keep falling in love,
Which is kinda the same."

I have this friend.

She is beautiful, she is confident, and she is the strongest person I know.

Of course, I don't mean strong physically with the decked out muscles, but strong in that she never gives up. She keeps on fighting.
She has her ups and downs, but with the amount of shit she goes through - it's amazing that she is able to keep on smiling, and keep making me so happy.

Her best friend was going through a really hard time today, and called her during rehearsals. And my friend, had said this sentence, while trying her hardest to calm her bestie down.
"Please, please, listen to me, we said we would always be in this together."

And what my friend was talking about, was life.

And a little part of me died just then.

Because I wish I had a friend, who I'd sealed some kind of binding promise with, bounding me to stick in there, if not for my sake - for the other person's sake. 

"A kind of, you jump; I jump, sort of thing."

A friendship like that, is something to really admire and respect. A kind of, you jump; I jump, sort of thing. And I know I feel that way about many of my close friends, I just don't think it'd be entirely reciprocated back to me if push came to shove.


Now this friend of mine, is actually a fair bit younger than me. And it makes me think about just how quickly the years below us are growing up.
I mean, when I was fourteen, I was calmly content with cutesy hand holding with that person who I'd called my "boyfriend", and a kiss on the lips was a pretty big deal.
But with my friend - she's facing things so much bigger than I am even now. Some problems very similiar, yet hers always seem to be on a higher magnitude than mine. 
I'm just hoping that by the time she's my age, she'll have worked out some of the shit and it'll all just be a thing of the past.
Because she is such an inspiration to anyone who's ever been depressed. And she's always the first person i go to for those kind of chats. It just helps having someone who "gets you" - you know?


Stick in there my sexy woman. 
I'll always catch you. You know that.

"All these walls are caving in,
I can't stop my suffering.
I hate to show that I've lost control,
'Cause I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from."