May 5, 2010

Nothing's Wrong.

"Blame a change of mind,
A seismic shift in times.
They told us not to fight,
But we'll fight it till we die.
"




One of my biggest pet peeves, is when you act like nothing's wrong.
Naturally, being the little hypocrite I've always been, I do it too.
But it still seriously annoys me.

It's like when you're talking to someone you used to be best friends with but have both now drifted apart. You still talk as if nothing's wrong. As if nothing's changed. You speak to eachother like it was only yesterday when you were drawing those messed up cartoons in class, or speaking about the cute boy from the station.
You talk, and you try to piece together the things that have happened since you used to be good friends. "So what's been happening?" - you might ask. This could be something you ask after a day or two, but you both know you really just want to find out everything. Everything you've missed out on because of your lack of effort in keeping together a friendship that used to be so treasured, but is now kept together by threads and stiches.

"But - as if by some intangible, unwritten law - neither of you speak of them."

The same thing goes for lovers. You move on, but still want to be friends. So naturally, you keep talking, keep seeing eachother at the occasional group outing. But the whole time you're looking at them, you are thinking about the past. The sweet and sugar-coated memories that fill up your mind, bleaching out the bad ones that had caused the original relationship to end.
And they're probably thinking about them too. But - as if by some intangible, unwritten law - neither of you speak of them. You pretend they're not there, yet it's on both of your minds.

I just don't get it. 
People always pretend that there's nothing wrong, but clearly, there is. Why not come out and say it? Why do humans build some kind of invisible wall around every past experience, and just pretend that everything's the same? That it's always been this way?
That nothing's changed.



"We can work this out,
I believe, although it seems impossible now.
Oh without a doubt,
We'll work this out.
"

5 comments:

  1. one of my pet PEEVES is bad spelling hahahaha.

    but a lovely blog nonetheless.

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  2. hahaha *edited.
    thanks :)

    it's actually one of my biggest pet PEEVES too. i'm so shocked i didn't pick up on it!!

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  3. Oh man I loved this. Because I think about this almost everyday. xD
    Nicely written too.
    Oh, just WELL DONE, babe! :D
    xx

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  4. fuck this one is my life.

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