100 Things You Should Already Know About Me.

So it's been a while since my last list blog, and the last one had a good response and it was quite fun, so I thought I'd write another.

Here are 100 things you should probably already know about me. If you didn't know them - start memorising! They're not in any order, just shows how muddled my writing brain is.

1. I am one of three-surviving quadruplets. (http://lmgtfy.com/?q=quadruplets)
2. I am the middle child - by one minute either way.
3. I am a drama queen.
4. I am not religious.
5. My first real kiss was on my driveway just after the new years countdown for 2008.
6. I am a sucker for song lyrics. Sing me a song and I'll love you longtime.
7. I was a vegetarian for a day. Then failed.
8. I over stress.
9. I over analyse every tiny detail.
10. I hate waiting. It means I have more time to dissect every meaning from something, then cause whatever it is to fail without chance.
11. I have terrible self esteem. Sometimes.
12. When at a restaurant, I always get a pasta dish.
13. I don't like calling people on the phone. If I do call someone, I say what I need to, get the information I need, and get out.
14. Acting is my favourite thing ever.
15. I have never been overseas.
16. My favourite present would be from Shannen - a written play script about my life.
17. I currently work at Boost Juice.
18. My favourite colour is pink.
19. My dream job is to edit film or media of some sort.
20. Cute notions never go unnoticed.
21. I love Nickelodeon's Avatar: The Last Airbender.
22. I am obsessed with playing Tetris.
23. I can be overly confident.
24. My favourite animals are turtles and snakes.
25. I like to be aware of flaws, so that I can fix them.
26. My favourite band is A Fine Frenzy.
27. I have a thing for glasses and freckles.
28. I act old for my age - but can be immature when upset.
29. I am too short.
30. Pet Hate: the misuse of words that have multiple spellings (your, you're, their, there, they're, etc.).
31. Music is my favourite subject at school.
32. My dream car is a light yellow 1998 Volkswagen Beetle.
33. I would prefer to train it than bus it.
34. I am a very fast texter.
35. I believe if something is worth doing, it's worth doing well.
36. My biggest fear: dead bodies.
37. I am a Leo.
38. All of my ex's are best friends of mine.
39. I believe everyone has a secret personality waiting to be discovered.
40. I hate confrontations.
41. I love the audition process.
42. I have a pair of painted volleys. One is Red Riding Hood, one is the Big Bad Wolf. They definitely made my birthday amazing one year.
43. I once wanted to be a librarian, a teacher, and a zoo keeper.
44. My favourite pizza flavour is cheese.
45. I love the spotlight.
46. My first job was at a dog kennel.
47. The best present would be if someone wrote and performed a song for me.
48. I love making movies.
49. The best game is Rachet and Clank on Playstation2.
50. Harry Potter's world is my favourite creative invention.
51. I have a thing for blue eyes.
52. It has been a secret dream to live in London. With the rain.
53. The game Spyro is amazing.
54. I have a bad habit of falling for older men.
55. Pet Hate: Flies.
56. I am a texter, not a caller.
57. There are only two people I hate in the world.
58. I love the chase.
59. Cookie dough is probably the best thing ever.
60. My favourite television show is Glee.
61. I am unfortunately good at blaming others for my own mistakes.
62. My favourite film genre is Horror.
63. My favourite artist is Gabrielle Aplin.
64. I think coffee is amazing.
65. I think satay mi goreng is better than original.
66. My favourite season is Winter.
67. I don't hide affection.
68. My favourite writer is Jodi Picoult.
69. I like night better than day .
70. If I'm mad at you, expect a facebook status about it. If I'm really mad at you; expect a blog.
71. I seem to fall too quickly for boys who lead me on.
72. I practically live on facebook mobile.
73. I am either happy, tired or extremely low.
74. My favourite fruits are a mix between avocados and pineapples.
75. I have only ever been in love once.
76. I go out of my way to help people.
77. I like cigarette smoke, but hate the thought of smoking.
78. Pet Hate: Nail files.
79. I love musical theatre.
80. I have issues with getting my feet dirty.
81. I prefer cold to hot.
82. I usually find that after chasing something for so long, when I finally get it, I don't know what to do with it.
83. I believe everyone has good in them. Somewhere.
84. The best ice-cream flavour is cookies and cream.
85. I am one for using the silent treatment. But use it on me, and I'll freak out.
86. My most played song on iTunes is Almost Lover by a Fine Frenzy with over 900 plays.
87. Manicures are the only thing that can calm me down completely.
88. If I poke you back on facebook, then you're special.
89. I am too trusting.
90. The best time of my life was during the last school musical: The Wizard of Oz when I was the Lion.
91. I will always be a sucker for Disney movies.
92. I love random presents or visits from the people I love.
93. I can't bake - at all - but I can cook.
94. People annoy me easily.
95. My favourite movie is The Lovely Bones.
96. I am very competitive when it comes to the things I'm good at.
97. The biggest turn on is a really nice smelling guy.
98. Pet Hate: when you leave the lights on in a room you're not in.
99. I voice my opinions. Some say too much.
100. Everyone deserves a second chance.

Birds of the Summer.

Fly so high, little bird.

You land on my porch a second, a third, 

And wait a while.

I acknowledge you for a moment, 

I even call you cute.

But then you're disregarded,

And I move on.

Everyday I walk past that porch.

Everyday you wait for me.

Sometimes singing, sometimes hooting.

You wait for me.

But to me you're just a bird.

Littering the sky with your wings and colours.

Swooping and spiraling,

Tweeting and chirping.

Forever around. Plentiful.

So I brush you off.

There are loads more like you.

Some with brighter feathers.

Some with shinier beaks.

Summer comes, and the birds return.

Crooning loudly at my window.

You blend in with the crowd,

Quickly forgotten.

But when summer ends,

The birds fly away,

And I am left alone.

And you hang around, 

Eager as ever.

Just as before.

But by the time I realise how different you are,

By the time I know that you're the bird I like the most,

Whose dull colours stood out like a rainbow,

Whose musical call was the loudest of all,

By the time I know you're the one I want,

You fly away. 

I call and call, you used to come back.

But the porch is empty, and you are gone.

Winter is here, and there are no birds in sight.

Ice and cold dew stick to the glass,

Hiding the sky from view.

But I hear a whistle, soft and sweet.

Racing out onto the street,

There you are, and you land on my porch.

I'll feed you bird seed every day.

Promise me you'll never fly away.

And you never do.

Your Own Medicine.

All those blogs I'd written about you. About all the pain and heartbreak I had suffered because of the way you'd treated me.

I know why you did it. It was the only way you could make me let go. And it was hard for me, but in the end, it helped. And now I thank you for that.

You know, most of the people who are unforgiving, really just have to walk a mile in the other person's shoes to understand. 

Turn the tables.

Taste their own medicine.

It's the only way.

And now I realise how you must have felt, seeing as it's now happening to me. But why - of all the people - does it have to be the guy I could turn to when I was upset, and in need of a hug? I didn't ask for this; he didn't ask for this; but it's happened - and there's no going back. Him liking me is wrong on multiple levels, and I tried never repeating what you'd done to me. But now I see, that it's the only way. Making you seem like a complete dickhead as opposed to a gentleman in my eyes had been the pivot point for me. And although I hated you for it, and although it seemed so cruel to shut me out in the cold like that - it worked. And I moved on. 

The fact that I am now doing this to one of my best friends means I'm actually breaking two hearts. It pains me seeing him upset like this, pleading with apologies for me to talk to him. But as far as I can see - it's the only thing I have left.

"I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love,
I did, I did."

But now you're telling me that I don't care about you? That I never did?

We both know that's complete bullshit. And if my Respect and Care post didn't tell you anything, I don't go that way. If you're one of my good friends, then I care about you. Probably more than anyone else. Why do you even think I'm doing all this? For you. All for you. And you'll secretly thank me, and we both know why.

You say you want to go back to how things were, back to when we were still close friends, but that wasn't helping the way things were, or what they were becoming. 

I'm sorry. It never meant to get this far. But you pushed it to here. My limits closed up, my stress levels became too much, and so here we are, and here we'll stay.

For now.

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Well of course it is. ♥